Day 62

Today is day 62 – May 11, 2017. I am exhausted.

I have not posted for the last few days because I just didn’t have the energy. I am fighting off a nasty head cold, and am full of snot and a sore throat. Also, maybe feeling a little sorry for myself. 😉

Colin, on the other hand, seems fine. So happy to be able to say this.

He got his trachy removed yesterday which is a huge win for him – he says he can eat properly, and also find the breathing much easier. He was very tired yesterday, and I am still struggling with knowing that he is ok even if he is quiet and subdued. I worry so much, but have to learn that is he says he is fine, then I have to believe that he is fine, and if he needs anything, he will tell me. I just worry so that the infection will come back, or something worse will happen. I guess this is part of my journey – to learn to be in the moment and not worry about all the what-ifs.

Here is a pic of my bestest with the plaster over his hole:

I had not shaved him yet, and if I had remembered to take one, you could have seen a clean-shaven Colin as well.

He is in good spirits, and I know he is in good hands, but I still worry.

I am taking today off so I can rest in bed all day and hopefully recover. It is not really good for me to go to the rehab centre where there are so many people with “compromised” immune systems in case I spread the germs. They are not necessarily fully compromised, but it is a fact that quads are much more susceptible to infections, so that is also going to have to be something on my list at all times.

My Dad put together the video of the braai we had this last Sunday – it was really lovely. Here is his footage:

The grounds are really quite beautiful, and we are lucky to be able to braai there.

Today I am grateful for breakfast, and the fact that we have sunshine all year round.