Day 42

Colin wasn’t able to sleep properly last night and needed his cpap mask for sleeping. Unfortunately, it was ruined in the ICU. It would have cost the same to repair as to get a new one, and we wanted to wait and see what would happen, but it became an urgent matter last night. The spigot on Colin’s trachy makes it so that he breathes through his mouth and nose completely again, and so the old obstructive apneoa is back. I had to go get a new machine today and took it through to him. I have no way of knowing if my explanation of how it works will pass to the next shifts, but I have tried my best. I worry more and more each day about Colin, although there is no reason really. I just know that he will be able to sleep so much better if they manage to put the breathing mask on for him properly at night time and remember to leave it turned on. Unfortunately, the ICU error in packing was a very costly mistake.

We also took my niece Shannon to the airport this evening – she is going abroad to Amsterdam to join a family as an Au Pair for a year. She is a beautiful young lady both inside and out, and it was a pleasure having her stay for a moment while she stopped off from Cape Town on her way.

Good luck Shanni – may you have wonderful and new experiences. Travel safe.

I made her a card which has little ladybugs on it.

Tomorrow and Sunday I will get to spend lots of time with Colin, but I am gong to need a break really soon. The cracks are showing, and I am constantly about 2 seconds from crying or shouting.

I can’t even sleep in tomorrow because the tumble dryer repair man is coming at 8am. I don’t mean to complain, but this must be the first time a repairman came (slightly late) on the day he said he would, and then said he would go buy the part and install tomorrow – and he called me back and confirmed that it will be 8am tomorrow. Never mind, maybe I can sleep a bit tomorrow afternoon.